Lazy summer days

This wasn't the homecoming that I'd been looking forward to all year. I yearn for the late night kickits with the friends, the cool summer nights doing absolutely nothing, and the tanning in the hot summer days. This is nothing like I had expected. Nothing like the summers that I used to have when I was in high school. Days and nights I spend inside the house. On the computer. What am I doing? Have I really changed that much while I was away for college? So much that I feel like I can't just call up my friends to hang out? I feel like it's such a struggle. I am not who I am when I am home anymore. I long to be with my friends from Aldea. I think they really helped me find out who I was, accepting who I was unconditionally. Though we can all be mean to each other and though drama can arise from the most smallest of things, we all learned to stick by each other as if we were family. We were a family. We are a family. I hope my friends from Tracy don't take this wrong or anything with me missing my Aldean family. It's just hard when you live with people for a whole year, spending all your time with them, and then suddenly... they're not there anymore.

Maybe I'll blog more this summer. These days, I try to find random things to occupy my time. I even volunteered to taking down the Christmas lights. And yes. They are still up. I don't know why, but I'd prefer to take it down if no one is going to. If you knew me well, you would know my love for the Christmas anything. But when it's a hot summer day in June, I feel that Christmas lights lining my roof just aren't right.

Another thing. I remember I used to have so many pictures. Lately, I have become the type of person that is too lazy to take pictures. Maybe I should resurge that need to take pictures that I used to have...

Goodbye.